Final Reflection

Crisana Poquiz Final Reflection

As this first half of the semester was great I definitely faced some challenges this semester. Someone very close to me attempted to commit suicide and I was the one who had to convince him to change his mind. I was missing a some of my classes to take care of this issue but I was slowly starting to fall behind on some assignments. After this my motivation was at an all time low and school work was just very overwhelming. Because this is a private topic, I did not want to burden my friends by telling them this and still do not bring it up. I felt myself slipping out of my habits that I have worked so hard to build and I knew I needed to get help at this point. I never felt comfortable discussing how I feel because I have always thought that nobody would want to listen or that they would think I’m weak. I never thought that I would end up going to counseling or anything remotely similar. However, life happens I knew I needed to get help but I still had to drag myself to the counseling office that day. Finally telling someone else about what had happened was the hardest thing I have ever had to do; I was sobbing the entire time. ODU counseling services have really helped me get back on track and I am thankful that we as students have that resource available to us. We are all fighting our own battles. This whole experience has been hard but also has taught me a lot about myself. Ending my first ever semester in college I can say it is way better than high school. Although I was bitter at the fact that I still live at home, I really love having my family close to me and supporting me through everything. I am learning that a “good college experience” does not mean you have to live on campus. And I feel like that has really shown how much I have grown by attending just one semester of college. I am also happy to say I am on track to end this semester with straight A’s and passed all my final exams!